blair and chuck are finally together *sniff*
haha omj BLUCK.

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ah gosh so much drama yesterday. and for the first time in years, i wanted to call my dad in shanghai but couldn't. had to register and whatever. -.- so pissed.
think last night was the night i've cried the worst, because my right eye actually became swollen. scary. O.o

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so talked to dad today. it's almost snowing in shanghai already. he said that if it gets any drier, the hail will become snow. yea, it's raining hail. :( it's going to be so frickin cold, and i only have one pair of thermal. for 3 weeks. i'm going to just fall dead frozen like a popsicle. aughhh...
but on the bright side, i got a new jacket! early christmas present from my aunt (thankyouthankyouthankyousosososomuch!) yay!

hope i'll remember to bring everything. O.o leaving tomorrow morning. OMJ IM LEAVING TOMORROW. bye :(


this morning, my mattress shook after every loud 'BANG' the construction outside made.
cool. (at first i thought Macey was playing a trick on me but huh, it wasn't.)
or maybe...it's a ghost.
whatever.

i feel... unbelievably happy now. hmm. :)

ugh its either too small or too blur.





"Today, I was volunteering at a nearby elementary school's carnival. They had a DJ operating the songs playing on the sound system. At some point, Miley Cyrus's "Party In The USA" came on. A child of about 9 suddenly dropped the the floor screaming, "MY YOUTH! MY YOUTH! IT'S BEING CORRUPTED!!!" The DJ immediately turned off the music, apologized, and then started a Beatles song. I have faith in today's generation. MLIA"

last night, i had a dream about Hercules.
which turned into one of Chace Crawford.

this is probably my most random, nonsensical dream ever.

seriously, Hercules.

AHAHA I NEED TO GO DO TUITION WORK NOW :(

oh my gosh.
it's the last day of school.

i feel really sad, thinking that i'll never ever see the people who i see almost everyday for like...

what the crap.

one and a half months???
(let's just say that it feels like a long time)

it's like just the june holidays.

aww but i'm starting to miss everyone already...

that liting and her obsession with mr nitrogen and her impeccable hair
that peiwei and her stupid brain and her "Kids..." look
that ami and her professions of love for me and her helium-voiced songs
that rachel and her addictive laughter and vulnerability
that qi ying and her stupid attempts at being nice and bottomless gut
that jia ying and her ability to inspire me to do my homework
that amanda and her violence and squishy cheeks
that that that oh gosh so many people...

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ohoh and this is going out to rachel: THANK YOU YOU'RE AWESOME
because she baked me a cupcake! one of the 7/8 people to receive her personalised lemon cupcakes! ahh.

rachel:(after handing me the cupcake) "Guess what it is (the picture on the cupcake)!"
me: "Er..er. Which way am I supposed to look at it?"
r: (turns cupcake)
m: "Ok, er, erm. "
r: "Come on, it's not that hard!"
m: (speechless)
r: "IT'S A CAMERA!"

heehee it looked like a slice of pink holey cheese.

butbut she said it was because i 'take nice pictures'!
waa i felt like melting right there and then!

but anyway RACHEL if you ever see this (which i highly doubt), THANK YOUUU! (it tasted really good too)

WELL IT'S BEEN A GOOD WEEK :)
i think i'm happy about my overall results, save for my CA1 literature.

oh well.

ahh and i've gotten another scarf to bring to shanghai! haha i love my aunt :)

it's GAP (GASSPP). and it's so comfortable...it's just too bad that i'll never be able to wear it here because it'll be too hot. pfft.

next week's the last week of school FINALLY.

kailin: "Her hair is like LION KING!"

amath tmr! bah whatever with english.

had a lot of stuff to post yesterday but ah, dont feel like posting.

gosh this is like a rant blog.

ah.
chinese is over.
one day closer to freedom and sleep.

chinese has been the worst paper; it was so frickin hard that i only understood like one passage.
never should have told my mum that the paper was hard, should have just said that it was manageable, cause she knew that i didnt study at all last night, but watched August Rush with dad instead. (by the way, now it's my favourite movie, seriously, it's veeeerrry goooood!)

my mum was super pissed because she doesnt allow macey and i to watch dvds on weekdays, even if we have finished all our homework and studied, blah blah. she only lets us watch on either saturday and sunday, and for me, that's only if i miss church. i don't know, she just seems so against me going to church because to her, it's unnatural to be so 'passionate' and involved. just because she doesn't like to go to church doesn't mean that i should share the same views with her.

augh, but anyway, back to the whole thing yesterday. it was my dad's last day here in Singapore, and i'd already promised to watch August Rush with him because he too thinks that it's a really good movie. and well, since yesterday was the only day i have time to watch it with him, because you cant study for chinese paper 2, which is just tian kong and comprehension, i decided to watch it with him, and my mum cant really stop us cause my dad's pretty stubborn (haha).

so when i told my mum that the paper was hard, she didnt believe me, even when i told her that evryone else complained that it was hard too (as in like really, apparently only 2 people so far have said that it wasn't hard). essentially, she told me that she'll check the ranking, which means that she didnt believe that the paper was hard, and that i was just trying to 'justify' myself.

i'm not happy that she didnt believe me. you know what, i've never lied to her about this sort of thing, and so i damn pissed that she thinks that i'll stoop down to such a level to argue and justify my situation. i myself don't like people who do that, and she knows it, so how could she think that i'll be such a hypocrite?

not only that, she was also pissed that my chinese tutor didnt come yesterday. she had told my tutor last saturday, that that was the last lesson before the exams, so my tutor thought that there won't be any lesson yesterday. in fact, what my mum meant was that that lesson was the last tuition lesson before paper 1, not paper 2, which was today's. she didn't even make herself clear, and yet she blamed my tutor for 'making assumptions'.

so, today after telling her that the paper was hard, she started scolding me saying that if my tutor had come yesterday, and if i had studied by 'doing passages', i would have been fine today.

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i wasn't feeling well today either. i dont know what it is, but it's only gotten better now, ever since like 11 in the morning today. and because of a really bad headache, i decided to postpone tuition. and so now my mum is all like, "I don't care, you have to miss church on sunday because you need to have tuition. It can't be helped because this wouldn't have happened if you had gone today."

so she expected me to attend tuition with a headache, feeling slightly feverish, and nauseous at the same time? i'm not upset because im missing church; i've had to miss church many times to attend tuition, but i'm upset because of how she had said it. and again, it was like she didnt believe that i was sick, but just faked everything to miss tuition. i'm frickin not that sort of cowardly person who fakes illnesses in order to skip exams or tuitions or whatever, ok? amath is on monday. i'm not giving up my tuition, because amath is really important to me.

shit la.

and i don't have anything to look forward to after the exams. my mum wants me to continue with tuition immediately after the exams 'to prepare for o levels next year'.
i dont even feel like working hard anymore. right now, i don't care about o levels. i dont even know what i want to do once i finish school. i dont even know what jc or poly i want to go to. this was exactly what happened at last year's exams. i did the worst i ever had, and you know, it didnt even affect me, until this pig of a friend was all 'oh! it's ok megan, its ok, dont be upset, dont cry'.

its so stupid, and it scares me that i don't even care.